Monday thru Saturday no food.
Sunday went as follows:
1 cup of lentil dahl soup
1 gluten free and vegan lemon poppyseed muffin
1 bloody mary
1 mike's hard lemonade
1/2 a shot of tequila
2 slices of Amy's Vegan Margarita pizza
24 barbecue potato chips
2 slices of sweet pickles
Monday:
1 Grain Bowl- rice, tahini, spinach, black beans, salsa
1 Zing bar
1 small blueberry and banana smoothie
The following days will be fasting. Tuesday thru Friday. Saturday night I will be making my pesto artichoke pasta so I will hopefully have some energy for the 5k on Sunday.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Friday, May 11, 2012
Fuck Comcast
I'm so irritated. Who knows when I will have reliable internet. It really took all my courage to call comcast and get everything squared away and when they came today to hook it up it turns out the room that holds the connection was locked so I needed the landlord who wasn't there. This entire situation has been so anxiety provoking that I broke down into a full on panic attack when the comcast guy left, unable to get me connected. So now I have to call Comcast again to set up another meeting time AND call my landlord to open the room. And right now it's seeming too overwhelming that I'm thinking I'm never going to have internet.
My fast has continued...which was unintentional but once you go one day, moving to the second, third, fourth, and fifth seemed only necessary. My birthday is on Sunday. My parents are coming. This equals eating at lovely vegan restaurants. I love the atmosphere. I love that the food is "healthy" and beautiful and compassionate. But eating it is another story. I will be breaking my fast on that Sunday. I've obsessed over the menu and chosen a soup. Sunday night we are going to the vegan bar in town. Friends from work will be there. I'm sticking to alcohol for the rest of the night. If this was it...I wouldn't have stressed this week so much. But Monday afternoon my aunt wants to take me for a birthday dinner. I have picked that restaurant as well. Chosen a rice bowl with veggies and black beans. I wanted a salad but the only salad they have is a house salad which is a side. My aunt has been trying to take me to dinner for months and our schedules just haven't mixed well....I think she would be disappointed if I just got a house salad. I then have ballet after that. Blargh.
The plan for Tuesday is a run to fix the rice bowl and soup. 6 miles. Good training for my 5K. I will then fast Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. Friday, half a banana. Saturday large kale salad with quinoa...in hopes that I will have energy for the 4 hour drive to the 5K and to actually run it.
I fit into my old jeans again. Which somewhat made up for this mornings awfulness.
My fast has continued...which was unintentional but once you go one day, moving to the second, third, fourth, and fifth seemed only necessary. My birthday is on Sunday. My parents are coming. This equals eating at lovely vegan restaurants. I love the atmosphere. I love that the food is "healthy" and beautiful and compassionate. But eating it is another story. I will be breaking my fast on that Sunday. I've obsessed over the menu and chosen a soup. Sunday night we are going to the vegan bar in town. Friends from work will be there. I'm sticking to alcohol for the rest of the night. If this was it...I wouldn't have stressed this week so much. But Monday afternoon my aunt wants to take me for a birthday dinner. I have picked that restaurant as well. Chosen a rice bowl with veggies and black beans. I wanted a salad but the only salad they have is a house salad which is a side. My aunt has been trying to take me to dinner for months and our schedules just haven't mixed well....I think she would be disappointed if I just got a house salad. I then have ballet after that. Blargh.
The plan for Tuesday is a run to fix the rice bowl and soup. 6 miles. Good training for my 5K. I will then fast Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. Friday, half a banana. Saturday large kale salad with quinoa...in hopes that I will have energy for the 4 hour drive to the 5K and to actually run it.
I fit into my old jeans again. Which somewhat made up for this mornings awfulness.
Monday, May 7, 2012
Update
Hello all you beautiful girls. I have missed this place...along with PT (holy changes). Life has been trucking along as usual. After a terrible bout of bingeing I leveled out for a bit, was eating "normal" amounts of total crap, and then went into "Yeah! I want to be healthy...yes let's be healthy"...went raw, started eating "regularly", working out again...running. And it hasn't been enough. I still feel shitty, and I've caught myself skipping meals and upping my running again. Which always leads me back to here. I'm snuggling in again. I have internet starting on Thursday. I will be starting a new blog that will be attached to this one where I will...wait for it....vlog. Yes a blog just of vlogs.
Anyways, in depressing news, tomorrow is my two year anniversary of my first suicide attempt. Oh how dramatic that sounds. Sunday is my birthday. Today I'm fasting....for no particular reason except that it's Monday and Monday really should be a fasting day. Sondra (previously called Lynndsey...but fuck it I don't feel like changing her name every time) and I are still dating. Trisha hates me. But everyday I fall more and more in love with Sondra. I started taking an adult beginning ballet class which I love. This is my fourth week. The only bit I hate is squeezing into tights and a leotard and watching myself wobble around in front of the mirror. But it really is fun :) I'm running my first official 5K on the 20th so that's exciting. Hmmm...I believe that's it for now. Sorry for the spazzy update.
Anyways, in depressing news, tomorrow is my two year anniversary of my first suicide attempt. Oh how dramatic that sounds. Sunday is my birthday. Today I'm fasting....for no particular reason except that it's Monday and Monday really should be a fasting day. Sondra (previously called Lynndsey...but fuck it I don't feel like changing her name every time) and I are still dating. Trisha hates me. But everyday I fall more and more in love with Sondra. I started taking an adult beginning ballet class which I love. This is my fourth week. The only bit I hate is squeezing into tights and a leotard and watching myself wobble around in front of the mirror. But it really is fun :) I'm running my first official 5K on the 20th so that's exciting. Hmmm...I believe that's it for now. Sorry for the spazzy update.
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