And back down I go

I've quit derby...again. And for the final time in my life. So many things got in the way. I was doing well with intake. Eating enough to skate properly and still lose weight too according to my jeans and girlfriend. But the social anxiety aspect of it all just made everything worse. I can't convince myself that anyone would ever see me as a valuable person on the team. I've never been a team sports kind of girl but I loved the rush of getting all your anger out on the track by slamming all you had into another body. I'm back to running. I'm attempting to maintain a healthy outlook on food. Already had a few chew/spit incidents however. Nothing major...and it was mainly because I knew there was too much sugar in it.

I've made some new year's resolutions...actually 101 because I like to fail

Reading:

1. Read 50 books (don't tell me I can't)

2. Join an online book club

3. Subscribe to Bust and VegNews

4. Purchase Harry Potter audio books and listen to them

5. Catch up on Walking Dead graphic novels

6. Rebuild my cookbook collection

7. Finish the Physics Tutoring DVD and calculus books

8. Finish the “All About Me” books with Sondra

9. Read a Shakespeare play I haven’t read

Food:

10. No more soda

11. Complete 3 day detox

12. Use Vitamix once a week

13. Use Dehydrator 12 times

14. Cut back on sugar without using unnatural sugar replacements

15. Cut back on processed foods (veganiase, daiya cheese etc.)

16. Make my own almond milk

17. Try 10 different teas

18. Go to Powell Books (should be in the books section but I don't want to renumber everything!)

19. No purchasing Starbucks unless I have a giftcard

20. Make some serious attempts to decrease/quit coffee (I’m being realistic here)

21. Try a new recipe every week (48 times)

22. Drink 3 glasses of water a day

23. Try a food I’ve never had every month

Extracurricular:

24. Start volunteering at Pasado’s

25. Go to 5 doll meetups/conventions

26. Grow veggies and herbs

27. Go to LeakyCon

28. Develop my Vegan Library

29. Go to 6 concerts

30. Go to the beach

31. Go on vacation with Sondra

32. Go on a wine tour

33. Go to the Chihuli Glass Garden

34. Have a dinner party

35. Have a vegan wine and cheese party

36. Go visit Melvin

37. Get my Melvin tattoo

38. Get together with Molly, Mary and Stephanie

39. Participate in at least 12 social hangouts

40. Go camping

41. Visit Pig’s Peace Sanctuary

42. Go to a burlesque show

43. Take Sondra on a fancy date

44. Go to and dress up for a Renaissance Faire

45. Have more hangouts with cousin Stephanie

46. Take the Seattle Underground Tour

47. Do more Fairy Oracle readings

48. Get some awesome stompin’ boots

49. Watch 20 classic movies I haven’t seen (Flash Dance, Pulp Fiction, Footloose….)

50. Surprise someone with something special

51. Go to the Pacific Science Center

52. Daytrip to Olympia

53. Go see 3 movies in the theater (1 at CineBarre)

54. Go to Card Kingdom and play cards

55. Go to a drag show

56. Attend a charity event

57. Go to an art show

58. Purchase 5 Furry Bones

59. Go see the Grey Gardens Musical

60. Go to a theater production

61. Learn to play Magic The Gathering

62. Go to the American Girl Doll Store

63. Go to the Seattle Art Museum

64. Have a picnic complete with old fashion picnic basket, sundress, and big hat

65. Go to a vegan potluck

Crafty:

 66. Sew 4 doll outfits

67. Sew 6 full sized projects

68. Learn to crochet

69. Take a picture every day

70. Knit a hat

71. Knit a baby blanket

72. Finish knitting Sondra’s scarf

73. Focus on one blog and write in it at least once a week

74. Make a frame or display of sorts to show all the Emilie Autumn concert experiences

75. Finish a puzzle

76. Make a full length music video

Fitness:

77. Run a Marathon

78. Go on 5 hikes

79. Buy new running shoes

80. Get abs and overall increase core strength

81. Complete 60 days of the Insanity workout

82. Learn to do the splits

83. Race for the Apes 5K 

84. Aids Walk

Life:

85. Find a fulfilling career

86. Go to the dentist

87. Keep car clean

88. Go to the doctor

89. Do not purchase plastic water bottles

90. Answer my phone

91. Keep up on Thank you notes

92. Keep up on correspondences

93. Remember and acknowledge birthdays

94. Get regular oil changes/keep up with car maintenance

Appearance:

95. Don’t cut or dye hair

96. Get contacts

Financial:

 97. Put $1000 towards debt

98. Put $2500 in savings

99. Budget monthly

100. Make a savings chart

101. Save all change and buy something fun at the end of the year

I'm still trying to find what I want to do with this blog. I'm going to be updating most of my resolution stuff on my public blog ( d i r t p o o r a n d d a y d r e a m i n g . b l o g s p o t . c o m)

But ya know. I like to come here to whimper and complain and hate  myself...though I'm really really really fucking trying to be better at life these days.